10/19/2010

My loves,

It has been hectic for sure since I last wrote. Poor Mason, you have had quite the week. You have always been the "fussier" baby between you and your sister. But this past Wednesday you started having diarrhea. Then on Saturday it started having blood in it. Needless to say your dad and I (and everyone else) were extremely worried. We ended up taking you to urgent care where they doctor on call said not to worry, try soy formula and follow up with your ped on Monday. Well on Monday, we saw the ped on call since yours had the day off. He told us, as of right now, to try another type of formula called Nutramigen. It is seriously a miracle! We could tell a difference in you after your first bottle. It is so expensive, so thank goodness we get a little help in that department, but to see you this happy and content, I would pay a million dollars a can! It makes me feel so bad, knowing that when you have been so fussy and looked like you were so uncomfortable over the past 2 or so months, it was most likely because you were allergic to the milk protein in your formula. I guess it is just a mother's poragative to feel bad about everything! LOL So hopefully this keeps on working. Even Grandma Kim when she stopped over today, kept saying how you were like a different baby. It is so wonderful!

On another note, the past two nights you guys have slept through the night!! No bottle feedings at all! Last night Maddy, you did wake up just screaming. Then dad tried to give you your pacifer, and that REALLY mad you mad. He layed you on the bed while he made your bottle and I just rubbed your head and off to sleep you went. You are such a character. You always let us know when you are NOT happy.

Both of you are just smiling up a storm now. It just melts my heart. You both are such wonderful babies. We waited so long for you to finally be here, and now that you are it is just surreal. We are so blessed.

My sweet Conner. Last week we went to your bedtime stories get together at Adams. You were so excited to get to wear your PJ's to school. You enjoyed all the books that the kindergarten teachers read. There was only one other little girl from your P4J class that was there, the rest of the kids were in kindergarten. We sat right up front, and it was so funny seeing you wanting to play with these few boys that were sitting next to you. They were playing with their stuffed animals you all got to bring, and we could see that you were just itching to play with them. When you finally got the nerve to, I was so relieved that they were nice boys and you guys played for a few minutes. You are just so brave. You just go with the flow and make friends where ever you go. Nothing really bothers you. I just pray you keep that trait as you grow up.

We went this past Saturday to play at Camden park with us 5, Grandma Kim, and your cousing Teyton and his Grandma Simi that were visiting from S. Dakota. You guys sure had a good time. Other than that, it has been pretty low key. You still are such a good helper with the babies *most of the time*. We are trying our best to make sure that you know how special you are to us by having some playtime outside with just us three. We know how huge of an adjustment having two new siblings has been, but you have been doing SUCH a great job. And you always make sure to give Maddy and Mason a kiss before you leave for school and before you go to bed and you always tell them you love them and that they are the best brother and sister you have ever seen.

When I see you next to other kids, I really get to see how wonderful of a kid you truly are. I mean, I KNOW you are wonderful, but you are such a polite, sweet and just awesome kid. We are SO blessed that we were chosen to be your parents. Every night when I come up to bed, I always check on you and cover you up and give you a kiss and tell you I love you. It is so hard to realize that you are growing so fast. I want you to stay my baby forever. I sometimes touch your hand, and just marvel at what a wonderful child you are.

Well goodnight my loves, I hope you all know how much we love you. And I pray to God every minute of every day that you three grow up never doubting that, and that he will keep you all safe and sound.

XOXO

Mom

10/10/10

My sweet babies,

Mason and Maddy, you guys are growing like weeks. You just had your two month appt on Friday. Mason, you are now the bigger one! You weighed in at 12 lbs 12 ozs and an even 24 inches long. And you Maddy, are 12 lbs 1 oz and 23 1/4 inches long. You also got your shots. Poor Mason, you were so miserable the whole night. It was also mine and Daddy's 5 year wedding anniversary and you and your big brother all spent the night at Grandma and Grandpa Ludois' house. Neither of you were very happy campers, but Mason was the most miserable. At least on a good note, you both are starting to be very good sleepers! You usually fall asleep around 830-930pm and only wake up once during the night to eat. Hallelujah is all I have to say!!! At almost 11 weeks old, you guys are growing so much. You both started smiling about 2 weeks ago finally. It just melts your heart when you guys give your little smirks and smiles. It makes you Mason look even more like your big brother, where Maddy, it just confirms it that you are my spitting image when I was your age. Last Thursday we took you guys and big brother to Peace Park. I tried taking some pics of you guys but neither of you were really in the mood. But we went for a nice walk on the trails and Conner got to run some energy off with daddy. It is days like those that I will always remember. Just us 5, enjoying each other on a gorgeous fall day. There is nothing better! Last night we had to laugh, we think staying at G&G's house wore our you guys as much as it did them. Mason, you fell asleep on my lap after eating around 630 or 7pm. We tried waking you up and you just were not having it. You ate a little when we fed Maddy but you were just down for the count. You didn't even wake up until 345am! You were one tired boy. And today Maddy, you have been asleep in your carseat most of the afternoon just snoozing away!

My sweet Conner,

Oh do you keep us busy. You haven't been feeling the best the last week or so. You have one heck of a cough, but it doesn't slow you down any that is for sure! You loved your time over at G&G's house. You and Grandpa had a "peeing" contest as well as your usual "farting" contest. You always laugh so hard when you tell us about it! You also told Grandma that when she is at work you miss her so much, and you told her that about 3 times. You are such a sweet little boy. You are so much like your daddy. You look rough and tough on the outside, but on the inside you are one big teddy bear with a heart of gold. You really enjoyed our time at the park. You just run non-stop! It has been pretty low key though, we haven't done too much since you haven't really been feeling well. You have started to show a little more attitude as well. I think the whole "sharing" mom and dad with two new babies is starting to really sink in. You love your babies so much, but I can really see that you have been acting out a little more. But that just means you need a little more one on one time with us.

On another note, you sure love school. You have really adjusted to going every day for 2 1/2 hours. You talk about your friends, and how much you like your teacher. I just hope you always love school this much.

That is it for now my loves

Love

Mom

SO much

Dear loves,

Maddy and mason, thank the heavens you are starting to sleep more through the night. Daddy and mommy can finally go to bed together again! The whole shift thing was really starting to wear on us. Now you sleep fairly well, and only get up usually one time to eat. That is super nice:) You both are starting to smile and coo also. I love your little half smirks. Grandpa Ludois was over on Thursday helping me out while Daddy was gone, and he got you to smile Mason, and you could tell he was so proud. He loves all three of you more than you could ever know.

This weekend you finally got to meet your great-grandparents. They were so excited to meet you, and said how adorable you both are. We spent most of Saturday over there, hanging out. Daddy was helping a friend, and I thought it would be fun to spend the day over there. Hopefully they all felt the same.

Conner, my sweet Conner. Saturday you didn't have a nap. We tried laying down on G&G's bed. The first time I was holding Maddy and you snuggled in my arm. We had our eyes closed, and then Mason let a HUGE fart. God, your laugh is just infectious. We both laughed so hard. So needless to say, no nap for you. Later that night, once we got home, you asked if I wanted to snuggle. So I sat on the couch with you, with you legs over mine and you fell asleep in no time flat. Daddy actually carried you upstairs and you didn't even wake up. I cannot remember the last time that happened. It just goes to show, how hard you play and that you still need a nap everyday! You pretty much played non-stop at G&G's house. But it was so sweet, seeing daddy carrying you upstairs. It's little moments like that I don't ever want to forget.

You are finally getting accustomed to going to school every day. When we get there you always ask me to lift you up. So I pick your 56 lbs up and we sway. It is funny, that even though you are 4, I still sway when I hold you. It goes to show, that no matter how old you get, you will always be my baby boy.

I think you are adjusting as well as can be expected to being a big brother of two new babies. You give them hugs and kisses constantly and you always tell them you love them. You are the best big brother, and Mason and Madelynn are SO lucky to have you as their big brother. I remember the night they were born, you were so excited to get there to the hospital. When you got in the room, Grandma Kim had tears in her eyes, and the room was kind of strained. We knew the babies were having some problems, but we didn't know to what extent. When you cam in the recovery room, you had the absolute biggest smile I have ever seen on your face. You were SO proud that you were finally a big brother. I think that is what breaks my heart the most about the whole experience. I feel like you were cheated out of getting what you deserved. You didn't get to really see or touch the babies until they came home over a week later. It isn't what I imagined would happen when we welcomed the babies into our family. And I feel horrible that that was your experience becoming a big brother. I know everything is great now, and the day you first met each of the babies and how you acted will forever remain in my heart. You were so proud. And your smile could not have gotten any bigger. You didn't know Maddy was coming home at all. It was a total surprise. It was to us as well! When you walked in the door and we said we had a surprise for you and when you saw her, and you started giggling and smiling. You were saying how happy you were while you were helping feed her. Like I have said, you are an amazing big brother.

I love all three of you more than you could ever know

XOXO

Mom

9/20/2010

Dear babies,

This weekend went so fast. Conner spent the night at Grandma's house while Grandpa was out of town at a pool tournatment. You had just a great time. Then Saturday night Grandma offered to watch Mason and Madelynn. And of course you wanted to stay too. Grandma had quite the handful with all you three. I asked if she had a death-wish! With babies crying and Bella barking, Grandma was almost reduced to tears since Mason was crying off and on from about 730pm to 1230am. I said she could have called, but she wanted us to have a good night sleep! She said you were SUCH a big help, Conner. And on Sunday morning when she was feeding the babies, you grabbed whatever glasses you could reach and gave her a big glass of water. What a sweetheart you are.♥ You also informed her that mommy had water too, and she puts ice in it to make it cold! And after going to the bathroom, you gave grandma a good laugh, stating that, "uh oh, I have dia-we-wah" You always can put a smile on anyones face baby boy.

Sunday was pretty uneventful. We just layed around the house since it was icky outside. Those are the best days though, the ones that we can just relax and spend time together, with nothing else to do.

Mason and Madelynn, you guys are starting to sleep more, THANK GOD. On average you both sleep about 3-5 hours at a time. Maddy, you are the better sleeper I have to admit. Maybe you can teach your brother a few things. You both are growing so fast. Almost 8 weeks old already. I wish time would slow down and you both would stay my little, wrinkly newborns a little longer. But I am so excited for the journey ahead and am so looking forward to your first smiles and your first laughs. SO many awesome things await my babies.

That is it for now. I am going to try my darndest to blog every night to recap the day. I want to remember these times, and I want you three to be able to look back when your older, and see how our little family developed over time.

I love you my three angels.

XOXO

Mom